Forsaking All Other

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Yesterday was a quite exciting day on the long and winding road to publication of my novel, Forsaking All Other – I signed the contract for development of the cover art. About two years ago I came within licking distance of publication with one of the big publishers but it  wasn’t to be. For the first time in this tortuous journey, it feels real and I can actually give a rough date. The book will be published in late March 2018. It might be a bit premature but to celebrate I am posting the first chapter. I apologize for the block formatting but WordPress has beaten me on this one

Forsaking All Other

England 1585.
Bess Stoughton, waiting woman to the well-connected Lady Allingbourne, has discovered that her father is arranging for her to marry an elderly neighbour. Normally obedient Bess rebels and wrests from her father a year’s grace to find a husband more to her liking.
Edmund Wyard, a taciturn and scarred veteran of England’s campaign in Ireland, is attempting to ignore the pressure from his family to find a suitable wife as he prepares to join the Earl of Leicester’s army in the Netherlands.
Although Bess and Edmund are drawn to each other, they are aware that they can have nothing more than friendship. Bess knows that Edmund’s wealth and family connections place him beyond her reach. And Edmund, with his well-honed sense of duty, has never considered that he could follow his own wishes. Until now.
With England on the brink of war and fear of Catholic plots extending even into Lady Allingbourne’s household, time is running out for both of them.

Chapter 1

July 1585

Bess Stoughton shivered as the icy wind snatched, yet again, at the hood of her mantle. Her dark hair was plastered to her head, her ruff flattened, and, after a heavy downpour about an hour earlier, the clothing damp beneath the mantle.

In the gloom she glared at Hornebolt’s back as he rode ahead of her. From the moment they had set out at daybreak, her father’s man had set such a punishing pace that, at times, Bess had difficulty keeping up. He had assured Lady Allingbourne before they left that he had arranged for them to travel with a group of merchants once they reached Chelmsford—there was greater safety in numbers. Yet here she was, one of Lady Allingbourne’s waiting women, travelling alone. Hornebolt was so far ahead that had Bess been attacked by highway robbers, she doubted he would have noticed.

Hornebolt had barely spoken to her except to give gruff directions. They had not stopped often enough to rest the horses well and would have eaten in the saddle had Bess not insisted otherwise. Her pleas to give some thought to the horses had been met at first with mutterings and later by silent contempt. The journey, which usually took at least a day and a half at a moderate pace from Allingbourne Hall to Bess’s father’s manor near Ipswich, would be completed in one long day.

Bess sank back into a miserable reverie. She had no wish to return to her father’s house. She had never before been required to attend the christenings of his children by the young wife who had replaced her mother ten years ago. Besides, Philippa was to be betrothed in a week. Philippa Beckingham was the eldest of the young women in Lady Allingbourne’s care, learning the skills and duties required of a woman in the running of a large household. Nearest in age to Bess, over time she had become her closest friend. Bess doubted she would be back at Allingborne Hall in time for Philippa’s betrothal.

The road wound past a small copse and there, nestled in the folds of the grey hills, was her father’s manor house. Not a single light flickered in any window.

As soon as they clattered across the bridge and into the courtyard, Hornebolt dismounted and led his horse towards the stables without a backward look. Perris, the groom of the stable, a familiar face from Bess’s childhood, came out into the courtyard buttoning his doublet. He greeted Hornebolt as he passed but Hornebolt grunted in reply.

Exhausted, Bess remained in her saddle.

Perris looked up at her. ‘I’ll help you down, Mistress.’

Bess fought back tears. ‘Thank you, Perris.’ Her feet finally on firm earth, she stumbled against him. ‘My legs are like jelly,’ she forced a laugh, holding his arm for support.

‘A long journey?’

‘Too long to be done in a single day unless it is a matter of life and death.’ Doubt swept through her. ‘It is not… My father…?’

‘No Mistress, all are well here. Mistress Askew and her babe, a little lass, are both thriving.’

Perris ran his hand along the quivering palfrey’s flank and grumbled, more to himself, ‘That man should never be allowed near horses.’ He straightened up. ‘I’m surprised this horse is still standing.’ He looked across to a lad who had just walked out into the courtyard, rubbing sleep from his eyes. ‘Ralph bring Hornebolt’s gelding out here.’ He started to lead Bess’s palfrey around the yard.

‘Is there something wrong with Rosie?’

‘Not if I do my job properly. No horse should be ridden as hard or as far as this one has been. Did you stop to rest the horses at all?’

Bess nodded weakly. ‘Yes, but not as often or for as long as we should have. Hornebolt was in a hurry. I tried to explain but he would not listen to an empty-headed woman prattling about matters beyond her ken.’ Bess made a fair imitation of Hornebolt’s gruff voice.

‘That’s the pot calling the pan burnt-arse,’ Perris muttered under his breath.

Bess stood staring up at the dark windows of the house. ‘Perris,’ she said, ‘do you think anyone else is awake?’

Perris, his attention drawn away from the horses, took in her bedraggled state. ‘You get yourself inside, Mistress. Mary is up, she’ll get you out of those wet things and find something to warm you.’

Before Bess reached the main door, it was flung open by a stout woman, grey hair escaping from beneath her coif. She bobbed a curtsy then threw her arms around Bess. ‘Sweeting, you’ve come home.’

‘Goody Perris.’ Bess blinked, forcing back sudden tears. ‘I am so pleased to see you.’

Mary Perris stood back. ‘But look at the state of you. Now get you up to the parlour. I’ve stoked the fire and I’ll get something for you to eat.’

She chattered as she led Bess through the darkened hall into a small parlour at the end. ‘Everyone’s abed. We did not think to see you until tomorrow.’

‘Hornebolt made sure we made the journey in a single day.’

‘A single day?’ Mary looked over her shoulder. ‘But he left five days ago.’

‘He only arrived at Allingbourne Hall late yesterday.’ She did not trust herself to explain more.

Mary clicked her tongue in disapproval. ‘I would be letting your father know that, if I was you.’ She held the door to the parlour open for Bess. Inside a fire crackled and the candles had been lit. ‘Now get that cloak off and sit by the fire.’ She settled Bess into a chair, plumping a cushion behind her, and hurried from the room, Bess’s cloak over her arm.

Bess dragged the chair closer to the fire and held out her hands. She sniffed, again fighting the urge to cry. Mary Perris and her husband had been part of Woolham Manor for as long as she could remember. In her way, Mary had been mother to Bess when her own mother had died. She was part of Bess’s idea of home.

In the flickering candlelight, the parlour appeared unchanged despite the presence of her father’s second wife these past ten years. The legs of a doll poked out from beneath a cushion lying on the floor beside the chair at the other side of the hearth. Bess eased herself out of her chair, bent down stiffly and picked up the doll. She stood in front of the fire staring at the doll’s carefully embroidered face and wondered what growing up in this house would be like now. Her own childhood, up until the day her mother died, seemed to have been sun-filled even in mid-winter.

And then, within a year, a step-mother had arrived, a young woman only five years older than Bess. Her father had been besotted, to Bess’s mind, fawning over his new wife, barely able to keep his hands in check. Bess’s sullen incivility had ensured a place was quickly found for her in service with her mother’s distant cousin, Lady Allingbourne. The years had not altered Bess’s attitude to her step-mother—she was her father’s wife, her children her father’s children, no real relation to Bess.


Mary bustled in with a goblet of mulled wine and a plate with slices of bread and cold mutton. ‘Here we are—this will take the edge off your hunger until I can heat up something else.’

Bess sat the doll in the chair opposite her and took the plate and goblet. ‘I’m not that hungry Goody, this will do.’ She sipped at the wine. ‘I would like to go to bed soon.’

‘You’ll be in with Joyce and Sybell.’

Bess frowned, she did not want to share a bed with children.

Mary rushed on. ‘They are the eldest, eight and nine, both good girls. The others are in the nursery. Joyce has been so excited at the thought of you coming.’

Bess raised an eyebrow as she took another sip but said nothing.

‘I’ll go and put your things in your room.’ Mary closed the door quietly behind her. Despite the appearance of always being in a rush, Bess remembered Mary could, when she wanted, move silently, appearing from nowhere—especially when you were indulging in the most entertaining of mischief.

Bess placed the plate on a small table beside the chair and eased off her shoes, wriggling her damp stockinged toes in front of the fire. Her skirt steamed with the warmth.


She turned to see her father at the door. Perhaps it was the dim light of the parlour, but Nicholas Askew seemed to have aged since she had last seen him two years ago, his hair and beard now heavily peppered with grey. Bess rose wearily from her seat; tomorrow every muscle would ache.

‘No lass, stay where you are.’ He squeezed her shoulder gently as he passed by and took the seat opposite her. Frowning, he pulled the doll out from beneath him and tossed it across the room onto a pile of cushions in the corner. ‘We were hoping you would arrive today.’

‘Hornebolt made sure we did. He set such a pace that he near killed the horses.’

‘He’s a driven man when he sets his mind to something.’ He tugged his fur-trimmed night gown tighter around himself. ‘Still, you seem to have survived the ordeal.’

Bess bit back a sharp reply and sipped her drink, staring into the fire.

‘Mary is seeing to your needs?’ he asked.

‘Yes, she has gone to prepare a bed for me with two of your children.’

Askew’s eyes darkened. ‘We have little space at present. Emma’s elder sister, Elinor, and her daughter came for the lying-in and will be staying until the churching.’ He forced a smile. ‘Joyce and Sybell will no doubt plague you with questions when they wake. To hear them talk, their sister is waiting woman to the Queen.’

Bess smiled weakly and forced the thought, we are sisters even if we have different mothers. I should not blame them for it.

Askew stood and bent over her. ‘Well daughter, I’ll leave you.’ He brushed his dry lips against her forehead. ‘The christening is set for after church tomorrow morning.’

Bess looked up at her father, her face betraying nothing of her feelings, ‘I will be ready. No doubt Joyce and Sybell will make certain I am up early.’

Askew’s face relaxed and his eyes sparkled, ‘That I do not doubt.’


Mary Perris led Bess to the bedchamber by the light of a single candle. She whispered as they climbed the stairs, ‘All your belongings are damp but I’ll make sure they are dry for the morning. You’ll have to wear a bed smock of the Mistress’s.’

Much as she wanted to, Bess could not refuse.

Mary opened the door for Bess. ‘You’ll find the bed well warmed with those two little angels in there.’

Bess’s eyes brimmed as a surge of jealousy swept through her. This was her Goody Perris loving other children. Bess held herself taut, as much against her unreasonable emotion as the cold, while Mary helped her undress. She told herself sternly that it was not rational that she, a grown woman, should be jealous of children near a third her age.

Bess climbed into the large bed and stretched out alongside the two girls with their flushed cheeks and angelic curls, careful not to disturb their sleep. She watched the wavering light of the candle as Mary moved towards the door and fell soundly asleep as soon as darkness claimed the room.


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